missing you -- nico

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

it's been a long day of school, and we haven't seen each other in three days. i guess that's life, but i miss you. a lot. so, since i don't have time to visit you at the moment, i have three essays to write at the moment, so i've decided to talk to you via letters instead. so, what's up? with life in general, i guess.

love,
annabel

[nicolette h. lestrange]

annie,
uh well i really didn't want to do this in a letter. but i guess i have no other choice since i haven't been able to find you in forever. i have some really big news sissy. some news that may come as a shock but i need you to be supportive and just listen okay please, the last thing i need is for you to turn away from me. you're my best friend.

nico

ps. i'm pregnant.
pss. i'm not keeping it.

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

... your pregnant? this isn't a joke, right? well, if it isn't a joke, then at least you aren't keeping it. babies drain your life, social and non-social, out of you. in hogwarts, a girl in our year in hufflepuff had a baby last year. remember? she decided to keep it, and when i last saw her she looked all tired and everything. but, anyway, i'm not going to turn on you. i can't do that. it must be a twin thing. right now, i'm more worried than upset. like, i'm worried about what will dad's reaction be when he finds out.

love,
annabel

[nicolette h. lestrange]

annie,
yes i'm pregnant and if you must know who the father is... ugh just writing down his name makes my stomach turn, it's benedikt perlin. you must be joking if you actually think i'm going to tell dad about this. i'm not going to tell dad about this. never not even in a million years would i think about it. no way. no. i'm not doing it. no way. there is nothing in the world that could make me tell our father that.

nico

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

wait, hold on. the father is perlin? jesus christ, nico, were you drunk or something? i thought you hated him! and he's both cocky, prejudiced and a manwhore. oh, well. the potion has been spilled. nothing we can do about it now. have you told ryan about it yet? and did you lose the v card to perlin while you were dating ryan? as for dad, sis, he's going to find out eventually. whether it's from you or some other source, whether it's tomorrow or twenty years from now, he's going to find out. i wouldn't tell him, but maybe someone with a grudge against you will tell. and dad would probably want to hear it from you instead of somebody else.

love,
annabel

ps. does rowan know?

[nicolette h. lestrange]

annie,
yes i know it was perlin. it was just some sweet words where rolled around. and the way he kissed me and just... don't judge okay? i was not myself and the saddest part was that i was sober. of course i wasn't dating ryan! it was about a week before he asked me out! jesus annie what kind of girl do you think i am! if i'm getting rid of the child dad never ever has to find out about it? it's not like he's going to see with a huge ass belly annie, i mean... right? ugh this is so confusing! i don't want dad to know! i just don't want him to know! he already hates me and rowan for being not in slytherin, you know how he is.

nico

ps. yeah of course i did. i saw her yesterday in the halls and she cornered she.... she actually said "oh you go girl" since perlin is "attractive" in her eyes. i just threw up a little.

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

well, i won't judge. you're my best friend besides rowan, and i'll always love you. no matter what. sounds corny, right? well, it's the truth. i just... think you could have done a lot better. like, a million times better. as for not cheating on ryan, good. i just wanted to make sure. i always like to know all the facts, you that about me nico. and as for dad... nico, just listen. do you know anybody, anybody at all, who would have a grudge against you for any reason at all? if so, be worried. once you get the bump, people in the university are going to find out. and if one of them hates you for some reason or another, they will probably owl dad in order to sabotage you. i'll hex anybody who tries, but just remember that this is a possibility. as for hating you and rowan, you know deep down this isn't the truth. i mean, he might be upset... but hate is a strong word. if he does hate you and rowan, i'll hex him myself.

love,
annabel

ps. holy shiz. she thinks perlin... is attractive? like, attractive? -pretends to vomit- if it's true, she's psycho.

[nicolette h. lestrange]

annie,
thanks i'm glad to always have you annie. i know. besides it was sort of a shock when he asked me, i didn't really even see it coming, he just did and well after what happened with perlin... i didn't see a reason why not? why couldn't i be happy. but i'm not going to get a bump annie. i refuse! if i do people will just think i gained some weight before i - before i kill it is all. i'm not keeping it so what does it matter. he doesn't have to know and that's final. i'll tell him is it get out of hand and the abortion date isn't until after i start showing or something but right now my belly is flat as a virgin's so i'm fine and i'm not saying anything. and you know he's got something in it for me and rowan.

nico

ps. well i did sleep with the kid, so yes he is attractive besides... we've always known rowan was psycho, where have you been?

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

so, have you achieved your happiness with ryan? as for not getting a bump, that's impossible. every pregnant women gets a bump. that's life. wait... you mean you're going to kill it? like, have an abortion? not, like, give birth to it and then put it up for adoption?
and while he might have something for you guys, he can't completely hate you two. he's your father!

love,
annabel

ps. he may be pretty on the outside, but the inside is a different story. as for rowan being psycho, of course i knew that! it just seemed like she was... extra psycho or something.
pss. are you going to tell mom?

[nicolette h. lestrange]

annie,
well i'm happy right now so yes i think i've achived happiness. have you not been reading annie? yes i'm going to kill it! i don't want it at all! i'm not going to get a bump because it's going to be gone because i get one. right? ugh i don't know how this pregnancy thing works. i'm just glad i won't have to deal with it much longer. that doesn't mean anything. ben would be the father of this child, twenty bucks he'd hate it.

nico

ps. yes ben's a monster on the inside and rowan is crazy, i've known these fact darling!
pss. so she can go tell dad? no that would be like telling tom and that would be bad.

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

well, ok. i'm just worrying about you and your happiness, calm down nico! as for killing it, i don't know... i think you shouldn't. no, this isn't because i like babies or want to see you suffer. but won't this be like a really big black dot on your consciousness? like, in fifty years from now, wouldn't you wonder what could have happened if decided to go through the entire pregnancy and put it up for adoption or keep it? as for the bump, we could hide it easily with a few enchantments, now that i think about it.
don't beat me into pulp

love,
annabel

ps. indeed you do. my memory blanked out for a second, i guess, so that's why i'm repeating known facts.
pss. maybe if you asked her really nicely, she'll keep the secret. or if you make the unforgiveable vow. just creating ideas here!

[nicolette h. lestrange]

annie,
no. i'm not going to be pregnant annabel end of story. it's not your child. it's not your body so you have no right. i will not through my life away no. and yes if i get a bump an enchantment would be lovely.

nico

ps. or i could just not tell her and be done with it. i'm not going to be pregnant out of the first trimester anyway.

[annabel n. lestrange]

dear sis,

ok, ok, ok! don't lose your head at me! i was just saying my opinion, and i'll shut up about the topic for now. unless you want to talk about it later.
onto less serious topics, how's roe doing? and what are you doing this weekend?

love,
annabel