HEAVEN IS INSIDE *

[maddox d. perlin]

theres a thunder in our hearts baby

so much hate for the ones we love

TAG: holly/aria! WORDS: 1244 ONE LAST THING: gah.. this took forever.. sorry. D:

there were days when maddox didn’t mind school. he enjoyed it, actually. university was so much different than regular school, after all. it was his choice to be here; he didn’t have parents forcing him to attend school. that alone made quite a difference and held so much influence on how maddox felt about being at hogwarts university. he was only here because he wanted to be. well, maddox didn’t always want to be here, but he knew that he had to. in the long run, it was going to pay off. it had to. and really, where was there any better option to work on his music and improve so much? he was only a freshman in college, and already maddox felt like he had improved tenfold. it was the people he worked with, mainly. he hadn’t had a problem with any of his professors yet. sure, one or two of them were a little dry, but he was still learning and at least their classes were only fifty minutes long. maddox honestly didn’t have a single class any earlier than nine in the morning, and he loved it. sure, most teenagers do, but maddox really had a messed-up sleeping pattern, especially during the summer. those three months, he would stay up until three or four in the morning, then sleep in until eleven. he never worked mornings, only afternoons. he’d get home at night and stay up late, then crash, then do it all over again the next day. it was a perfect schedule, in his opinion. he knew he couldn’t complain when his classes didn’t start until nine. it was almost unheard of, he’d discovered from others, as a freshman, to get so lucky with class scheduling. well, he was grateful. his schedule was perfect for him. well, not having classes in the morning at all may have been better, but with this current one, he knew he couldn’t complain. maddox’s only worry was that next semester would be different, and he’d have to start getting up early and — worst of all — going to bed at a decent time. that would be hard to adjust to. it would honestly be like jetlag to maddox, or maybe even worse. actually, yeah, it would be worse, because he wasn’t leaving the country or anything, so it would still be dark when it felt like night and light when it felt like morning. it would just be fucking with his mind, really. maybe he could figure out a way to only get afternoon classes. he could talk to an academic counselor or something, figure something out that way. he was well-behaved enough in class and everything, right? they had no reason not to like him...

reasons not to like him... there were certainly others in maddox’s life who had plenty of reasons not to like him. it was just that these reasons didn’t seem exactly justified to maddox. like his brother ben, for example. what had he ever done to make ben hate him? he may never show it or let anyone know, but it actually bothered maddox — a lot — that his brother hated him so much. sure, they didn’t have the same mom. big deal. why should that matter? they were still brothers. maddox and his sister got along so well, and then there was ben. always separate from the family, there but not really there, like a ghost or something. just... detached. he was always detached. off by himself, in his room half the time or something. he never wanted to hang out with maddox. as a younger kid, it kind of hurt his feelings. being the baby of the family, his sister was older than him and only wanted to play with dolls and do girly stuff. benedikt, however, was just about maddox’s age, just a little older. less than a year. how come he never wanted to hang out with him? his sister was great, yeah, but it just wasn’t the same, not having a boy his age to play with at home when he wanted him to. sure, maddox met other kids in town, but when he got a little older and his parents didn’t want him hanging around muggles constantly for fear of letting magic slip when he couldn’t control it, his life got a little lonely. he didn’t want to play dolls. he didn’t want to play house. he wanted to run around, play quidditch, pretend to kill things, all that fun little boy stuff. and ben never wanted to. no, he was happier by himself, and really.. that bothered maddox. didn’t he ever get bored up there alone, reading books all the time? books sucked. at eighteen, for the most part, maddox still thought that books sucked. and ben just enjoyed him... well, he was sorted into ravenclaw, both in hogwarts and also at the university level. maddox, however, was pleased to be placed into gryffindor. excited, actually. happy. overjoyed. and then there was ben. as always.

and then there was aria. aria flint, ben’s best friend. maddox couldn’t tell or know for sure if ben ever did, but he himself had a thing for her. she would never even look his way, just because ben wouldn’t. she wanted nothing to do with him. she’d follow along with whatever benedikt said, however benedikt felt. it felt like he was the only one that mattered to her. in their family, well, there wasn’t even a question whether that was true or not. maddox’s feelings for her had faded over the years, after he started truly realizing that he didn’t stand a chance. that it was useless, that he didn’t want to be with a girl who’d treat him like shit anyway. but still, every time he saw her... there were those lingering feelings he couldn’t completely ignore even if he wanted to. nah, he’d just admire her from afar. that would work. just like it was right now. maddox sighed, continuing down the hallway with his books in his hand and his water bottle in the other. he was heading back to his dorm, actually. his last class had finished for the day and he wanted to drop off his stuff in his room before he grabbed his broomstick and headed out to practice on his own. he hadn’t been flying once the entire day, and it was killing him. maddox lived for quidditch. when he wasn’t playing music, he was playing quiddditch. and when he wasn’t playing quidditch, well, it was moments like this, walking behind aria flint in the hallway and just staring at her, watching her walk, pretty shamelessly. he wasn’t creepy about it, or stalkerish, but he just.. he couldn’t help himself. maddox sighed softly again, untwisting the cap on his water bottle and taking a drink. it was at that exact moment that someone brushed past him at the exactly right angle and he stumbled forward, his water bottle spilling and... shit. ah, shit, no, that hadn’t just happened. the water propelled forward, and it managed to spill all over aria. her backside in particular. wonderful. maddox regained his balance and swallowed, terrified for what she’d do when she turned around and saw that it was him. “shit, i.. i am so sorry,” he muttered, his face already turning red. oh please, please, don’t let this end that horribly. she already hated him. she didn’t need to hate him anymore than that.

tell me that we both matter dont we

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[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] trip to your heart ( WORDS ) 1281 ( TAGGED ) MADDOX PERLIN ( STATUS ) COMPLETE to say that Aria was in a bad mood, would be an understatement. she was irritable and beyond her normal amount of bitchiness and it wasn't anywhere near her time of the month. boys were usually her area of expertise. yet lately it seemed they were confusing her more then her actual studies. which was something considering this was her second year of University and her work load was growing increasingly by the day. she could deal with her increasing work load though, or rather she was learning to deal with it. finally finding a suitable notion of spliting up her time between her social life and her home work. though she had to give a little more on her social life then she would have liked, the whole boy catastrophe was helping her in that area. Aria Flint swore she'd never be one of those girls that thought about any one guy for any period of time. in her defense it wasn't any one guy. however it was two. one whom she shouldn't be thinking about at all and another whom she shouldn't be thinking about in the way that she was. it wasn't her style to over think when it came to guys. when it came to Corvin Lestrange and Mason Aesalon though, her style seemed to fly out the bloody window. everything that she stood for went right along with it. she was always the girl that never did commitment. never wanted it because she didn't want to wind up getting hurt. she had seen far to many girls shed far to many tears of blokes who didn't deserve it. she always preferred to live her sex life like majority of males did. no strings, no commitment, nothing but fun. it had worked for her since Mason deflowered her for merlin's sake. now it was seeming to bite her square in the arse. Aria would try desperately to ignore the way her stomach would flip whenever she saw Mason. she'd tell herself that turning around and walking the other way whenever she was even remotely near to him was just a normal reaction. yet somewhere deep down she knew she was lying to herself. for years she had been okay with this notion but ever since sleeping with Corvin everything had been messed up for her. it was like sleeping with Corvin opened this whole part to her that she didn't necessarily like. sleeping with Corvin should have been something that never happened. it had though and she couldn't exactly change that. she didn't regret things and she wasn't apart to start now. he had been her best friend for as long as she could remember and best friends was something she thought they would always stay. yet sleeping with one another had changed everything. it had been increasingly strange for the brunette because she had slept with one of her friends before and everything was fine. hell, Quinton had been her friend for quite some time and they slept together whenever the need arose. they were still just as tight, nothing happened to their friendship. she wasn't so lucky with Corvin though. whatever had went on between them, changed everything. something that night had changed her. a change she hadn't been looking for nor wanting exactly. she was seeing Corvin in ways she would have never thought before. becoming nervous around him, which was something Aria never was. feeling as though there was something more going on between them, when it was exactly that something more that she never wanted. being with him should have been like being with any other guy. never once had there been signs to other feelings for him. if there was she was unaware of it. Aria didn't understand the need for the change that had come about. she wanted things to be back to how they were. she wanted him to go back to being her best friend. she wanted to be able to sleep with whoever she wanted and not feel guilty about it for one reason or another. she also wanted for Benedikt to be the only male friend that she had impure thoughts about and couldn't do anything about it. this was getting a wee bit insane. Aria never wanted for any guy, except for Ben. she was just getting used to wanting him and not having him and now she had all this other boy mess to add in there. it was enough to give any girl a headache. which was exactly why she had been doing everything to forget about it. had met Nyla after one of their classes and they had went for coffee during their free period. she had listened to her friends boy woes and it finally took her mind off her own. it was refreshing not to be thinking about any guys, and doing her best to help her friend. though she had avoided the question when Nyla had asked if there was anyone on her radar. it was just something that she hadn't wanted to get into. given that she wasn't sure what to make of everything just yet, so she didn't see the need to involve others. when she found that she did need a hand, if it came to that, she'd probably go to Quinton and get a males perspective. it was nothing against Nyla, she adored the girl but some times a males point of view was just required. having left her best friend at her next class, Aria had been carrying on down the hall with plans of going back to her dorm. she had another free period and thought of going to change. in the morning it had been chilly, though that still really hadn't stopped her from wearing a skirt. a black one to be exact, with a white top and white peep toe pumps. though Aria loved heels of all kinds, she found peep toes to be the most comfortable. pausing for a moment as a bunch of rowdy guys sped past her, not wanting to be splattered upon the ground. Aria felt something wet spill all over her backside. she had known there was people behind her and she hoped for their sake, whatever had just spilled on her was just water. turning around and coming face to face with none other then Maddox Perlin, a smirk tugged at the corner of her lips. Maddox was Benedikt's little brother, with a well known crush on her. raising her eyebrow she cocked her head and looked back at her butt. "i really do hope that is just water." she commented bringing her gaze back to Maddox. "i know how excited you get when you see me, so lets hope for the both of our sakes its just water." she loved teasing him. obviously by now she knew it was just water and her comment was unnecessary but she liked seeing the kid blush. obviously it wasn't more, the mans pants were still securely on. "if you really wanted to get me out my clothes Maddox, all you had to do was try a bit harder. water is never the answer." Aria smirked, tugging her wand from her hand bag and drying up her skirt. most girls probably would have flip if it had been them, but she wouldn't do that to the poor kid. okay, maybe she would but she didn't feel like making a scene right now.

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love the awkwardness already xD

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[maddox d. perlin]

theres a thunder in our hearts baby

so much hate for the ones we love

TAG: holly/aria! WORDS: 1155 ONE LAST THING: they make me laugh xD

at eighteen years of age, maddox perlin couldn’t really say he’d had the most eventful love life. he’d had a girlfriend or two in his time, but nothing really serious had ever arisen. just typical teenage relationships that don’t mean anything or get anywhere. maddox could never see himself marrying any of the girls he’d dated. there was only one girl in his history that he’d ever had real interest in, and that was the one girl he really couldn’t have: aria. she wasn’t interested in him. she never had been, she never would be. she was too close to benedikt for that. on one hand, maddox hated that he still had a crush on her. he wished he didn’t, honestly. it killed him to like her when she didn’t even want to look at him. (or if she ever did look at him, she was scoffing, or she was teasing him, whichever was worse.) but on the other hand, maddox enjoyed admiring her, whether up close or from afar. not so much in his current situation. no, right now, he’d much rather be miles away, hallways away. why, of all the people in the world to spill water on, had it been aria flint?! sure, with magic, it really wasn’t a big deal at all. it was nothing, actually. it could be fixed in an instant. however, it was still the act that did it. just the fact that it had happened was killing maddox. of course, she’d have some sort of snide remark, and he’d blush, and she’d laugh at him, and others would walk past and witness the whole ordeal, and maddox would be beyond embarrassed. yes, it would definitely be better if maddox didn’t have feelings for aria at all. however, his feelings for her were the ones that, even though they had diminished quite a bit with time, they were still lingering there. it wasn’t like he could ever think she wasn’t pretty, she wasn’t attractive. hell, she was one of the most beautiful women he’d ever met. and there was no way he could ever have her.

sure, it sort of helped to know that she didn’t want him. maddox wasn’t honestly sure he could handle a relationship with aria even if she was interested. he would end up with a never-ending stream of shit headed his way from ben, incessantly. it was obviously better off this way and maddox knew it. if he could just stop staring at her every time he saw her... it wasn’t like maddox had devoted his life to aria or anything. no, there were plenty of other girls he thought were hot too — he was a man, of course. there was just something about wanting what you couldn’t have, that was all. she was the epitome of that. at least he wasn’t pining after her the way he used to be, back during their hogwarts years. that was almost unbearable for not only maddox but probably aria as well, not that he would ever ask her. no, for the most part, maddox had really moved on now. he’d spent time in relationships with other girls and he enjoyed them, yeah. they’d been fun. nothing super serious ever, just having fun. mutual break-ups, those sorts of things. neither one of them expecting much. one day, maddox wanted to get married, yeah. but he was eighteen; he wasn’t looking for something super serious like that right now. sure, if the right girl came along and maddox could just tell he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her, he’d have a serious relationship. that wasn’t bound to happen soon, though, right? he had years ahead of him to just have fun. that was what college was about, wasn’t it? the hogwarts years are fun, but the hogwarts university years are even better. meeting people, partying, getting into trouble, and the whole time obtaining a degree. quidditch was thrown in there somewhere for maddox, too. quidditch was second only to music in maddox’s life, actually. it had been that way for years. music, quidditch, then family and friends and girls and having fun. having fun tied in with the first two, though. no one said careers didn’t have to be fun; maddox desired nothing more than to have the time of his life playing music for a living. and of course, he’d still play quidditch. it was already his plan to find a community league out there or something that would have him. after all, he was good enough to be a chaser in college; a community league would be thrilled to have him, and he’d be thrilled to be there.

for as much as he goofed off and said the next four years — and his life, really — were all about having fun, maddox really actually did know what he wanted to do with the rest of his life. he had a rough sketch planned out. after graduation, he was going to, well, be a musician. that much had been planned out for years. then there was the quidditch league; that much was definite, too. as for marriage, well, they always said that most people met their future spouses during college. maybe that would happen for maddox. by senior year he was bound to be in a relationship that he might actually want to stay in, right? either that would be the case, or he’d meet someone soon after he graduated. by twenty-five, he figured. after marriage, maddox wanted kids. he wasn’t the world’s biggest children person, but he knew that in some point in his life, he wanted to be able to say that he was a father. he didn’t want kids now or anything, hell no. but in ten years? maybe. his kids would love the fact that their father was a musician. it wasn’t a particularly intense life plan, but it was what maddox wanted out of his future. if asked if he had a plan, well, he’d probably say no — he wouldn’t admit it. but he did. at moments like this, however, maddox felt even less confident than ever. god, how did aria always have that power to do this to him, to embarrass him so effortlessly? “i- .. i don’t...” maddox muttered, quickly screwing the cap back on his water bottle and slipping it into his bag, looking down at the ground the whole time. he knew if he looked up, she’d be smirking. she always did when maddox did stupid things like this around her. well, not that he’d ever managed something like this before; this was a whole new level of stupidity for maddox perlin. “i didn’t mean to, i just.. sorta tripped...” he figured his best bet was to just ignore her comments about him... er, having an accident. there was no need to give her more fuel for the fire — he was blushing enough already.

tell me that we both matter dont we

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