--find me BROKEN::aria

[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

I

[/size]t always seemed that no matter how hard corvin tried, something always brought his thoughts back to his ex. he’d be walking down the hall and see a pumpkin juice dispenser and be reminded of how cute she looked with an orange mustache. or he’d hear a song and think of the time she got up on top of a table in the mess hall and sang it out with her friends as a joke. even something so simple as seeing a ladybug crawl over a table would remind him of something. it was hard when so much of your life so far had been spent with or thinking about a certain person. it got to the point where it was weird not to be thinking of them. corvin hated it. it drove him absolutely mad. especially when things would remind him of her, he’d see her face as clear as day and then reality would strike home as he remembered that it had been days or weeks since he’d seen her. they were both avoiding each other, that much was very clear. it was their pattern. because if they made the mistake of seeing each other there was an 85% chance they’d end up hooking up and the whole cycle would start over again. it’d be great for a while, then the arguments, jealousy, or just plain frustration would set in and one of them would do something stupid and hurt the other. they were probably pretty even on the ammount of times they’d hurt the other. it was like some sick yo-yo. and it was enough to make any man want to throw himself off a bridge just to be rid of it.

not that corvin would. well that was a lie, he’d totally throw himself off of a bridge, but he’d have a bunjee cord strapped to his feet. but that was corvin, he loved anything that was an adrenaline rush. maybe that’s why he couldn’t get over his ex, their twisted, roller coaster relationship was like the ultimate adrenaline rush. you never knew when it was going to blow up. maybe instead of a yo-yo it was like pulling the pin on a grenade and tossing it back and forth waiting to see when it would blow. ya corvin’s thoughts were just a tad depressing and twisted today. but, oddly enough, he liked those days. it was when he wrote all of his best music. he had scores of songs, and partial songs written on days like this. and that was why he was sitting in his favorite writing spot. a massive window in the highest tower that had a nice window seat. he had his guitar across his lap and a battered old book full of scribbles, crossing out and full songs. that book was his soul. it was his life. there’d been a day when he’d thought it had been stollen when he’d just about had a mental break down. luckily aria had found it for him.

at the thought of aria a sad smile touched his lips. one of his best and oldest friends. she was almost like a second part of him, he knew so much about her and vice versa that they often didn’t need to speak out loud but could get through a whole conversation just in eye brow raises and facial expressions. a handy trick when they were kids and didn’t want their parents knowing what they were up to. but now.... well it seemed like corvin was doomed to have two of the biggest and most important influences in his life avoiding him. actually the song he was working on now didn’t have so much to do with his ex as it did aria. it was a song about a boy and a girl, friends growing from making forts out of the couches and ‘camping’ out in them to laying out under the stars and talking of guy and girl troubles, and finally to finding themselves waking up beside each other with clothes strewn across the floor. it was still in need of allot of refining. but it was exactly as it had happened. one morning, what a week ago already?, they had woken up beside each other with clothes everywhere. and now he could barely look himself in the mirror each day with the guilt. he was the one who was supposed to protect her from guys like him. and look what he’d done! but that wasn’t entirely the truth. the song he was writing spoke of guilt and regret, but it also spoke of confusion and another feeling. because corvin wasn’t entirely sure what it was that that night had sparked in him. but things had changed. when he caught glimpses of aria in the hall he’d get a giant smile on his face and raise his hand to wave, only to feel like the wind was knocked out of him as her eyes met his.

he missed their bear hugs they used to have, but at the same time he wasn’t sure what touching her would do to him now. he was sure he was going crazy. his dreams were full of his ex turning into aria and back again. or one or the other walking in on him. it was maddening. it was usually aria he went to to help him deal with all the crazy emotions that went through his head on days like this. but now she was part of the problem. last night he’d done something he hadn’t done in a long time to deal with it all. he’d gone out and gotten fall down drunk. and he’d ended up getting in a fight, as he always did when he was in that state, and he was now sporting a black eye. the other guy had had to have his buddy mend his arm after corvin had broken it. luckily the other guy had thrown the first punch so corvin wasn’t in any trouble. but today he’d woken up with a hangover and had decided the best way to deal with it was by grabbing his flask. not his usual half hour run. so here he was, sitting by himself, writing songs, and already probably half cut at 1 in the afternoon. self pity could be a hell of a thing.

tags: aria
word count: 1059
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: yayayayayayaya!!![/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1240 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE it was funny, Aria had slept with a lot of men. this wasn't exactly a secret nor was it something she was ashamed of. she didn't see any reason why she should be to be honest. guys could sleep around and not get hassled for it so Aria saw no reason that girls couldn't. usually when she slept with a guy, what she wanted from it was clear. nothing. she enjoyed the no strings attached fun and didn't want anything more from it. she had been this way since she had slept with Mason. one man who surprisingly enough could make her feel beautiful and then at the same time completely and utterly worthless. this wasn't something she shared with many people, anyone actually. her thoughts about Mason were completely confidential. not even Lucian or Corvin knew about them, which was saying something. wasn't really surprising though seeing as Lucian has wanted to kill Mason since Aria had went to him over the whole thing. it just wasn't like her to talk about guys. unless it was in the form of which of them were good in bed and which ones weren't. sure, Aria had guys in her life that she cared for that she slept with but that had never really been an issue for her. take Quinton for example. he had been one of her best friends since as long as she can remember. yet the two of them had slept together on numerous occasions and it was nothing more then that. it was almost as though the notion of being friends just turned off when they slept together. they could wake up in the morning and everything was just fine. they'd laugh and joke around as they got dressed and that was that. though now there was her issue. Aria didn't think she had very many of them, especially where men were concerned but more and more seemed to be popping up. as if keeping herself from ripping Benedikt's clothes off every time they were alone wasn't enough. she had just went and screwed things up with another of her best friends, quite literally. Corvin Lestrange had been one of her best friends since childhood, much like Benedikt. the only major difference was, Aria never really had that urge to rip his clothes off. yes he was extremely attractive but the two of them never really ventured down that road. he was always caught up in some kind of drama with his on again off again girlfriend and she, well she just had other prospects to keep her busy. whatever had possessed them to change this was beyond her. alcohol hadn't even been involved which only further puzzled her. they had been alone, which was nothing unusual for them. they had been talking, which again was something they did on a daily basis. perhaps it as the conversation topic, whatever it was Aria couldn't for the life of her remember. some how though they had wound up sleeping together. one thing had lead to another and she woke up next to him, finding the situation completely awkward. something she had never experienced before. she had shared a bed with many guys before so she didn't understand why it was so different with Corvin. the feeling she had experienced brought her distinctively back to the morning she had awoken with Mason. a feeling that had practically sent her running for the door, making some lame excuse as she went. it hadn't mattered to her that she was barely dressed, hopping down the corridor as she had tugged on her skirt. having been sporting just a bra until she had managed to get her shirt on. the only thing that had seemed to concern her at that very moment was putting space between the two of them. space that she had stood firm on for the past week. avoiding her best friend wasn't exactly something she was used too. yet the confusion and the nagging voice in the back of her mind told her she wasn't quite ready to face him just yet. Aria had tried to convince herself that sleeping with Corvin was just like sleeping with any other guy, but had failed miserably. there was always that annoying nagging voice telling her it was something more. this was exactly the thing that she didn't like. she didn't know how to deal with for that matter. Aria was the girl who enjoyed the no strings attached fun and yet she wound up in the confusing mess she swore she'd never be in again. she had even tried doing the only thing that would make sense, sleep with another guy. however, not even sleeping with Sebastian had helped and that always helped her feel good. not that sleeping with him hadn't been good, it was. now though she was heading back from Nitro at the early hours of the afternoon. doing her best to appear like it wasn't some walk of shame. to her, it really wasn't. that didn't stop some form of guilt from slipping up inside her though as she crossed the campus hoping to merlin she didn't run into Corvin. one would think it would be easy, seeing as they weren't in the same house. it wasn't though. as it turned out Aria had discovered just how many classes they actually had together. scurrying across the campus and into the main building, the heels of her black boots clicking against the stone as she went. her hair was pulled into a side ponytail and draped along her left shoulder. the white jean shorts and the black shirt that she wore, were clearly wrinkled indicating that she had worn them for more then one day. anyone that knew Aria knew that her appearance was important to her. the only way she'd be caught dead in the same outfit twice was if she was coming from someone else's place. just about to pass through the other door that lead out to the dorms, Aria stopped dead in her tracks. her blue eyes met with the brown ones of Corvin and she felt like the breath had been stolen from her lungs. the thought of making a run for it had cross her mind. however, it was clear that he had saw her. biting down upon her lower lip she allowed her hands to fall from the door and stepped towards him. the only thing she could think of doing was pretending like everything was okay. "hey," she greeted him, hoping it hadn't sounded as awkward out loud as it did in her head. "writing a new song?" she knew that old book from anywhere. shifting from foot to foot she felt like a bloody fool. this was Corvin, she was always able to talk to him about anything. though she didn't even know where to begin with what they really needed to talk about. "how's things with the women? you two back on yet?" Aria mentally cringed at the question, though she had no idea why. it was a question she had asked more then once but now she seemed to care a lot more about the answer.

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love the awkwardness already xD

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table by CALIFORNIA DREAMING of CAUTION 2.0, lyrics by maroon 5

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

S

[/size]omehow this was turning into one of the hardest songs he'd ever written. writing for corvin was usually something similar to seeing a shrink for regular people. it helped him to address, work through and move past any problem or emotion he was having. but merlins left nut it sure as hell wasn't working now. if anything it was just making him more and more angry. he'd crossed out the title more times than he could count, right now al it said was "air", a play on what he tended to call aria. ya most people just stuck to aria, but he always seemed to find a way to shorten any name, hence 'air'. and that was just the name. the entire page was crossed over, words switched, changed places, complete verses written out then scratched. ya his book was usually a mess, but never this bad. all he could think was that it was because he'd was having a hard time figuring out what all was going through his head, let alone admitting it. if he was truthful he'd know exactly what was going on, but he couldn't let himself venture down that road.

that road lead places where he'd only let himself go once before. and look where it had gotten him. he could barely function if he knew his ex was in the room. he turned into a puppy any time she threw him a bone. no matter how hard he tried to keep himself from falling, he did every time. he couldn't let that happen with aria. he knew he couldn't go the rest of his life without being able to talk to her, he'd go mad. she was about the only one who really got him. well there were a few others, he had his mates. but aria was different. may have been the whole growing up together thing. hell going a week not talking to her was making him go crazy. but he feared facing her and what had happened, even more than he feared facing his ex again. this was completely uncharted territory for him. he'd hooked up with girls he was friends with before. but aria had always been in a class of her own. in more way than one. of course he knew how beautiful she was. he'd have to be blinder than harry potter supposedly was with corvin's great aunt ginny. but the thought of anything but friendship with her had never crossed his mind ever before. she always just been aria.

crossing off yet another verse he quickly penned something else in, strummed a couple lines then fully picked up his guitar "...Because these days aren't easy, Like they have been once before, I've failed us now i see, These days aren't easy anymore..." he sang out finishing just as he realized someone had walked into the room towards the second door. stopping abruptly he looked up and had the semi-familiar feeling of being punched in the gut. swallowing hard he attempted a smile at aria. it made him want to throw something when he heard how strained her greeting was. why the fuck did he let it come to this? as she motioned to his book he quickly flipped it shut and stuffed it out of sight. instantly regretting it. of course that would just bring more attention to it. swallowing again he brought his gaze back up to hers, "hey, um.. ya i am." he finished lamely rubbing the back of his head.

as he looked at her again he couldn't help but notice the rumpled clothes she was wearing, the day old makeup. and instantly he felt like he'd not only been slapped but some dick had also decided to throw a bucket of ice water in his face at the same time. his eyes went cold and he could feel himself mentally pulling back. hearing her next question corvin again had the feeling of wanting to throw something. maybe at himself, he wasn't sure. "no. i haven't seen her." he answered, mentally kicking himself for how cold it sounded coming out. but really, how could she have asked about her? ya sure part of him was all for pretending it never happened, but that was just like shoving it in his face. swallowing again he nodded his head indicating her clothes, "late night?" as he asked it he reached down and grabbed the flask at his feet. taking a swig he winced as his head and eye stung again. hera's tits he'd have to remember who that guy was and give him another good beating. at this point corvin was pretty sure he'd be heading back to the bar for round two tonight.

not that it was a good idea. he knew that. he knew it was never a good idea for him to drink allot. when he got drunk he was easily riled and would go off on the first person that tried anything. like last night for instance. some guy didn't like how corvin was hitting on some girl and had said something. after a few words the guy eventually threw a punch. and corvin went on to leave the guy with a split eye brow and a broken arm. all corvin got was a nice shiner, but it did hurt quite a bit. he should have worn sunglasses he figured. then aria wouldn't notice and think he was drinking and fighting because of what happened, which was true but she didn't need to know it. then again, what did he care? she obviously had been with some other guy last night. didn't look like she really gave a shit. the thing was corvin wasn't sure why he did? never before in all of their friendship had he ever felt jealous or upset when aria hooked up with guys. he knew she was rather promiscuous, so was he. it maybe made him a little agitated, but that was only because quite a few of the guys he would have rather kept far away from her. but that was because he was suposed to protect her! and he'd failed in the worst possible way.


tags: aria
word count: 1031
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: uh oh corvin is getting confuseded[/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1131 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE Corvin was the last person Aria every thought she'd be awkward around. to be quite honest, she hated it. not only was it not like her to be awkward around anyone. this was her best friend she was talking about. someone who she had told pretty much everything too. someone who had seen her at her best and those rare moments at her worse. she trusted him with everything, which meant a lot when it came to Aria. there was no reason for her to be awkward around him. at least not one that was clear above the surface. she was quite sure it would take a serious shrink to find out just what was going on, because she certainly didn't have a clue. granted, she could wager a guess but that wasn't her forte. nor did she really want to go there. that would not only be uncharted territory for the brunette. it was territory she didn't want to venture onto. not because it was Corvin, she didn't want to venture into that territory with any guy. she kept her distance, kept her heart safe and that was exactly what she intended on continuing to do. she couldn't get messed up in matters of feelings. merlin, then she'd become one of those girls that she hated. whose life revolved around a guy. the ones that whined when said guy wasn't around or worried about what said guy was doing. Aria absolutely refused to become one of those girls. not for Corvin. not for Mason. not for any bloody guy. Mason had been one of the guys that had the potential to turn her into one of those girls and she had panicked and nipped that in the butt right away. something she was failing at doing with Corvin. things were different with her best friend though. sure she had been friendly with Mason, but he didn't know everything there was to know about her. he hadn't been there to hold her hair back the first time she drank too much. he hadn't been there to keep her from killing the girl that ruined her brothers life. he didn't know every in and out of Aria like Corvin did. Aria was so in over her head that she didn't know what to do. it wasn't as though she was admitting there may have been something more between them the night they had slept together. she was just so bloody confused as to what was happening between them now. the nervous feeling she got when she was around him was unexplainable. the guilt she felt for sleeping with other guys whenever she saw Corvin was something she had never felt. wanting more then anything to go and see him but then feeling as though there was some invisible hand holding her back from doing so. it was all so confusing and to be quite honest it was driving her mad. Corvin was the one person she would have went too with these issues. now she couldn't exactly express them too him when they concerned him. could she? sighing mentally she hated the debate that had been going on in her for the past week. every part of her just wanted to pretend like they hadn't slept together. to go back to how things were. didn't she ever wish now more then anything that she had a bloody time turner. at the same time though, she really didn't want to erase it. Aria had slept with a lot of men, some good and some not so good. yet there were only two men, that had managed to completely blow her mind. everyone said no body ever compared to your first, which was something she had found to be true until she had hooked up with Corvin. it had felt, different. not in a bad way but in one of those toe curling mind blowing ways. something that had only sent her into a spin the next morning. so it wasn't as though she regretted sleeping with him. she didn't have any regrets she just wished they would have thought about it first. that or that she would have known the consequences before hand. raising her eyebrow as he quickly shut the book and shoved it out of sight. he had never done that before. she had been one of the few people to actually be able to see the book. "guessing i can't see it?" she asked now motioning to the hidden book, trying to keep her voice from sounding defensive. her mind now a whirl wind of thoughts as to why he was acting so weird. perhaps she wasn't the only one to blame for their avoiding one another. she wasn't sure if she felt relieved by this or more worried. swallowing and licking her suddenly dry lips, Aria hated this. leaning against the wall next to her with her right side, she finally took a moment to look her best friend over. the black eye was the first thing that stuck out and it nearly caused her to gasp. "Corvin! what the hell happened to your eye?!" Aria questioned stepping forward without thinking and bending down, reaching out and gently tracing her fingers around his eye. "are you alright?" her voice held concern as her eyes met with his. when she finally realized how close she was to him, she nearly fell over whilst trying to back away. looking down at her feet at the cold tone of his voice as he answered her question. "so, things are still off then?" why was she asking this? or more importantly why did she seem to care so bloody much? she tried telling herself that it was because she cared about him and hated seeing him putting himself through the turmoil with that girl. that nagging voice though in the back of her head told her it was more, she choose to ignore it. "um," she paused looking down at her clothes then back at him. "something like that. went down to nitro last night." Aria replied, almost cautiously. watching as he took a swig from his flask a heavy sigh escaped her lips. "drinking this early? do you really think thats a good idea?" he was still her best friend right? she had the right to ask questions like this didn't she? merlin, she didn't know anymore. "how about you put that down and we get some coffee into you?" it was a friendly suggestion she told herself. nothing more.

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haha! i think they both are xD

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table by CALIFORNIA DREAMING of CAUTION 2.0, lyrics by maroon 5

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

T

[/size]here wasn't much joy in corvins world right now. not only was there the usual drama and bull shit with his ex, but now one of his best friends was possibly lost to him. aria had been something more than a friend to him ever since they were kids. but never in a sexual way. till about a week ago. he still had no bloody clue how it had gone from them talking to them waking up in bed together. they weren’t drunk, they weren’t under any sort of imperious curse. it just happened. that was bad enough, but the real problem was he couldn’t get images of that night out of his head. there wasn’t a girl that left him that haunted after a night together, except his ex. but even then it wasn’t the same. with his ex it was purely lustful rememberings. but with aria... well it was just plain confusing and weird. the worst of it was is that it had been good, more than good it was possibly the best sex he’d ever had. with his ex it was to the point where they knew everything about each other, exactly how the other moved and all their little quirks and spots, which was amazing in it’s own way. but with aria, it was something completely foreign, and that had been what made it so great. corvin figured it wouldn’t be so bad, he wouldn’t be so guilt ridden if it hadn’t been good. but the fact he’d enjoyed it so much made it ten times worse. it was like every time he remembered something about it, or it would pop into a dream he would feel all the guilt all over again. it was wrong, he shouldn’t be thinking about it. he’d been trying very hard to keep all of it locked up in a corner of his brain. along with the small nagging thoughts of doing it again. and the even worse thought that maybe he shouldn’t think it was so wrong. after all they’d been friends for years, knew pretty much everything about each other been threw their rough spots and little fights and come through stronger. he’d always thought that if his grandparents forced him into an arranged marriage that if it was aria it wouldn’t be so bad. at least he’d laugh allot. if he let that small part out of it’s lock box, and sometimes it did force itself out, it made a whole lot of sense in ways. they could be really great together. but, it just felt wrong. he was too worried about ruining their friendship.

as he sat there corvin was struggling to again force that small part back in it’s box. it was like fighting with another part of it’s self. well maybe it’s not such a bad idea. one would argue are you kidding me? of course it’s a bad idea! what if we broke up and i lost her forever? the other would shout back. and what if you didn’t break up? the other one would finish before it was shoved back in it’s box. that was always the part where he managed to push it back . there had never been another girl in his life that corvin had let the marriage thought in to the picture. except with his ex. there’d been more times than he could count that he’d thought that maybe one of these times it would finally work. all the other bull shit would just melt away and they’d realize they were meant to end up together. he’d thought allot of times of just asking her to marry him, even if they weren’t back together at the time. just get it out. tell her to forget all the other crap and answer one simple question. ya it seemed like a great idea in his head. hell he already even had a ring. no one knew that. not even his brother, aria or anyone. it was tucked into a box, that was in a small bag in the corner of a drawer in his dresser. he’d seen it one day, shortly after yet another blow up with his ex. he’d been walking past and there it had been. it was too perfect for him to not buy it. even after, as he walked home with it in his pocket, he’d been in a daze completely in shock from what he’d just done. but he’d never given it to her. that was over a year and a half ago now.

part of him wondered if maybe there was a reason he hadn't. even when they'd been together since he'd bought it he hadn't. that part of him, the one now back in it's box, had wondered if maybe he was holding out for something else. maybe this. maybe part of him knew something would happen. but that part was being annoying. corvin couldn't be feeling any of this. not about aria. not when it put the rrelationship with his best friend in danger. inwardly punching himself for the idiotic move of hiding his book. of course she'd pick up on that. he usually showed her all of his songs. she was amazing at picking up on things to change, or refining what he was trying to get across. but there was no way he could show her this song. she'd know what it was about in a second. even with out the title. "it's not finished yet." he replied, he knew that wasn't a good enough reason, but it was all he could say. it wasn't like he could be like 'no i don't want you to see it because it's about you and how i might maybe be starting to have feelings for you and even maybe falling for you and you'd know right away and i can't let you know any of that.' ya no that wouldn't do. and he wasn't sure he could say all of that in one breath.

looking at aria for a second corvin saw as her eyes registered his appearance. and seeing the concern there and seeing her face he felt like he had a crazy mixture of feelings running through him. like he wanted to grab her and kiss her for all he was worth, and yet at the same time he wanted to run away as fast as humanly possible. it was a maddening mix. 'what the hell happened to your eye'? well it was a pretty straight forward question. and usually he'd have no problem telling aria, so why was he suddenly feeling sheepish? like he felt guilty, and bad for making her concerned. usually he'd tell her and they'd laugh about it, or well she'd yell at him then they'd laugh. but now, well he wished he hadn't now. or that he'd used that damn bruise remover his mom always forced him to use when he was a kid. it smelled horrible, but it worked. then all of those thoughts stopped in a millisecond. the very second aria's fingers touched his face it was like total reset. everything went fuzzy. it was kind of a nice change of pace, from having all those thoughts and feelings whirring through his head to instant stop. corvin swallowed hard as the realization of how close she was came over him, his eyes dropping from her hand touching his, to her lips and then back to her eyes. his response died on his lips though as he saw the realization pass through her eyes. when she jumped back like she'd been scalded corvin had to close his eyes to keep from wincing in pain. it hurt to think she couldn't even stand to touch him. hurt more than he thought it ever could. shrugging it off he simply replied "got in a fight.". he knew just those four words would explain it all to her. she'd been there for enough times to know he got drunk, some guy said something (probably after corvin first hit on his girlfriend) and it came to blows.

opening his eyes and looking over at aria he saw he eyes were firmly fixed on the ground. sighing he scrubbed his hands over his face, trying to clear away some of the fuzz that remained in his brain. a puzzled expression came over his face at her next question though. hadn't he just told her he hadn't seen his ex? so of course things were still off. "yes we're still off... maybe forever.". why had he added that last part? he had no clue what was going to happen. they could get back together they might not. so why did he need to add that is? all he wanted to do was go over there, hug aria and force her to smile like he always did. but he was afraid shed jump back if he went to touch her. and he didn't think he could take that right now. resting his head back against the window sill he swallowed. "was it fun?" he asked. taking the cowards way. asking if it was fun could be taken as him asking if the bar was fun, not what he really wanted to know. but he couldn't ask that, it would reveal way to much not only to aria but to himself.

looking down at the flask in his hand he shrugged and shot her one of his sidelong smirks, "doesn't seem like a bad idea," he replied before taking another swig. he knew she had a point. and he felt guilty. why did he feel guilty? why did he feel like he was being an even worse person for drinking? and why did he feel like he really wanted to put his fist through something just looking at her rumpled clothes and knowing what it meant? and if that thing he put his fist through was the guys face, all the better. merlin he didn't want to feel this way. he'd never been jealous or pissed some girl was hooking up with other guys. never. even when him and his ex were broken up and he heard about her and other guys. even with aria, the numerous other times he'd heard from her about her conquests. not a single thing. till now. it was making him fucking crazy.

sighing corvin stood and put his flask and his book into his back pocket. throwing his guitar over his shoulder he shrugged. "coffee's fine, if i can add some baileys." he mentioned with a grin. walking over to aria he went to put his free arm over her shoulder like he always did, and quickly changed it to scratching the back of his head. fuck he wanted this awkwardness to be over, but he was scared of what it would be like after that. more scared than he had been of anything before in his life. coughing he gestured to the door, "shall we?"

tags: aria
word count: 1828
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: mauahahahahaha[/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1467 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE Benedikt was the only friend that Aria was used to feeling even remotely like this around. he was every inch of her best friend, but at the same time she had several thoughts of ripping off his clothes and having her wild way with him. her imagination often ran wild of thoughts with him, which tended to leave her to go and find someone to sooth her raging desire. now, when she looked at Corvin she became so bloody confused. she wanted to curl up in his arms and lay under the stars out by the black lake because that was what they did without thought. another part of her wanted to press her lips against his and kiss him until she couldn't breath. then finally another part of her wanted to scream and demand answers to questions that she had, even though she knew he wouldn't have the answers. it was insane. she wanted to know where all these confusing emotions came through. there was nothing more she wanted then for them to be gone. for things to be back to normal, to how they were because she needed her best friend. he was one of the few people that she could tell anything too and not be afraid of being judged. sure, she loved all her best friends but no matter what there was always one or two that she was closer too. some in different ways then others obviously. Corvin was one of the few men in her life that she never thought she'd travel down that other path with. they were just too close. a lot of people thought they were dating and sometimes that thought came in handy. other times though, it was annoying. guys would assume she was his girlfriend and didn't want to go there. it would take far to much time and convincing on Aria's part to show them otherwise. time that could have been used doing far better things. Aria always enjoyed making other girls jealous for Corvin, it was just fun. it would be nothing for her to sit in his lap and play with the mohawk he had for hair. even for her to whisper something in his ear and though it would be something foolish she was saying, she had a way of making it look seductive. acting like that around him was just great fun and something that she wouldn't think twice about. now though, now she felt like one of those girls that she made jealous. Aria didn't like it one freaking bit. raising her eyebrow at him once again at his statement, simply blinking at him. it wasn't finished? when had that stopped him? she had read through and edited several of his songs before they were done. she really didn't understand what made this one so different. though she didn't really like that he was suddenly keeping things from her. "that's a new excuse." Aria tried to keep her voice from sounding harsh, but it was hard. she was hurt if she was being honest with herself. not that she wanted to really admit that but at the moment she couldn't find another reasonable or rational explanation. merlin this was maddening. they were best friends and they should be acting like it instead of letting one night ruin everything. sex had never been so bloody confusing to her before and now she almost wanted to be a bit more cautious on whom she slept with. a turning point in her life surely, one she wasn't sure if she should be happy with or not. Aria hadn't missed the way his eyes had skimmed from her hand, to her lips then back to her eyes. it had made her heart skip several dozen beats within her chest. part of her had thought that he might actually kiss her. the thought had appeal but another part of her didn't think for a moment that he'd try anything. not in the school. not when his ex could see them. did she want him to kiss her though was a question that she should be asking herself. yet it seemed to flee from her mind for the time being. she hadn't meant to jump back the way she had, it had just been a natural reaction. why being so close to him had caused such a reaction all of a sudden was beyond her. well, it really wasn't, but it was what she was telling herself. shaking her head at his response, she could only imagine that alcohol was involved. "some guy not like that you were hitting on their girlfriend?" she asked softly, almost as though she was dreading the answer. "i do hope the other guy looks worse then you do." normally, this would something they would laugh over. normally she would have been there to keep him from getting in a fight to begin with. it was obvious that things weren't normal anymore and Aria didn't know how to fix it. running a hand through her hair a heavy sigh escaping her lips, unintentionally. she didn't like how things were. not one bit. "did you put any of your mother's potion on it yet?" again something that Aria would usually do for him. something that she wasn't around for and that made her feel even more guilty. "its never off forever." the instant reply fell from her lips before she could reply and she mentally scolded herself. Aria didn't miss the way her body seemed to surge at the prospect of him not being with his ex anymore. even though she tried to ignore it. "what i meant was- you deserve better. i've told you this several times." trying to cover herself, her eyes holding his for a minute. did it seem like she was talking specifically? merlin she hoped not. that would reveal far to much, to the both of them. licking her lips as she found her eyes dancing across his lips. flash backs of his lips upon hers playing before her eyes, nearly causing her knees to buckle. backing herself up against the wall to keep herself standing she looked away from him. "hm?" his question pulled her from her thoughts. was it fun? was what fun? thinking back to what he could be referring too, she nearly choked on her answer. "it was. the bar was hopping like usual but Sebastian was feeling rather blue so i spent most of my time with him." she hoped that hadn't been to much information. it wasn't as though she was telling him she spent the night with Sebastian. Corvin knew they were friends, but he also knew what kind of friends she was with Sebastian. "i had went down just to get out though. it's been a while and i think my social life is dying. been a while since i've been out that is." Aria fumbled over her words before biting down on her lower lip. this was horrible. as he stood and walked toward her, Aria stayed where she was. almost freezing on the spot when she saw his arm stretching out. closing her eyes and releasing the breath she hadn't realized she was holding. stepping towards him, she reached around to his back pocket and grabbed his flask. doing everything in her power to try and ignore how close she was to him. "you really don't need this. its not even dark out yet." dropping the flask into her purse she looked up at him. she knew Corvin liked his alcohol but now more then ever she feared him enjoying it far to much. Aria enjoyed the odd alcoholic drink from time to time but she wasn't a big drinker. never had been. "and i'll be making sure that your coffee is alcohol free." following behind him, she exited the school. "why are you drinking this early anyways?" Aria asked him, shoving her hands into her jean pockets. to fight the urge to link her arm with his. how she was going to get through this coffee she didn't know, but she'd figure something out. "did you want to grab coffee at the campus cafe? or in town? or come back to my room? i just got this wizarding expresso machine, its pretty wicked." she told her mind to shut up as she put the offer of her room out there. this could be trouble.

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-snickers- oh this is fun! <3

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table by CALIFORNIA DREAMING of CAUTION 2.0, lyrics by maroon 5

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

H

[/size]ow was it that there could be so many damn emotions going through his mind at one time? it just wasn't fair. ya that's waht corvin thought. sure it sounded like something he probably should have left back in the time he still thought girls had cooties. oh merlin those were simpler times. back before he thought girls were nice to look at, and even nicer to touch. and do other stuff with... ya corvin definately like that. it may have been easier back then, but he'd sure miss it all. well most of it. not any of these damn confusing feelings. he was used to the usual feelings he felt for his ex. they were so much a part of his normal life that he didn't really notice them till he was looking at her. for whatever reason every time he saw her again it was like the first time all over again. the instant brain re-set, the feeling of getting punched in the stomache. it was all par for the course. but what he sure as hell wasn't used to was getting those same sort of feelings when he looked into aria's eyes.

corvin could tell aria was trying to keep the harshness from her voice. she'd completely failed but he could still tell she tried. he couldn't help but wince at it though. it wasn't something he'd ever really heard from her before. he visibly winced before sheepishly shrugging. "it's just too messed up right now. the whole thing's too confused and all over the place to even understand." he offered as an explanation. it was about as close as he could come to telling her the truth. not like he knew he wanted to. or well mayb ehe didn't. one second he wanted to grab her and kiss her and throw caution to the wind. and the next he was trying to convince himself it never happened and act normal. ya normal, like staring at her lips. ya that was completely normal to do to your best friend. even less normal was jumping back like you'd been scalded. if he let his mind wander down that road he'd easily be able to figure out what had caused it. he was rather well versed in women. but there seemed to be a massive wall across that road in his mind. no way around it, only the long hard climb over. and corvin hated climbing. or running. it was lame. why run, or walk when you could ride.

corvin liked to ride. he had a motorbike parked in a muggle garage in london, along with his big jacked up truck. he had a weakness for those fast muggle machines. hardly anyone knew, only his siblings, his ex, aria and a couple of his mates. and the muggle police that kept trying to catch him. they never suceeded. usually because all of a sudden the vehicle they were chasing would dissapear behind a bush and vanish into thin air. almost like magic... odd that. ”actually i was only really helping her up after she’d almost fallen into me. apparently i was doing in to friendly of a manner.” he replied cooly. it was true. he had only been helping her up, but he may have thrown in a compliment or two while he was doing it. but he really didn’t want to tell aria that. he figured she could guess, it was just the way he was. even if he meant nothing by it and wasn’t trying to get anything out of it, he still handed out compliments. ” well his mate had to mend his broken arm so i guess he does.” he replied chuckling. it really was funny to him that guys always thought of him as a push over. especially if they knew he was a singer. they figured he was some namby-pamby eunuch or something. shuddering he shook his head ”no that shit stinks worse than merlins old jock strap.” he replied. he hated that crap his mother always made him use. and he didn’t entirely trust it as she didn’t know what was in it. she always got it from her uncle george. and according to grampa george was not to be trusted too far.

at aria’s next comment corvin’s head jerked toward her. what the hell did that mean? he didn’t fully believe her quick fix either. but he decided to go with it, for now at least. ”maybe. not really any other ‘better girl’ who i know’s interested in me though.” he replied. it was true. he could argue, quite succesfully probably, that aria was much better for him than his ex. but, as he’d said, he didn’t know if her or any other girl for that matter was interested in him. he was kind of fishing, and he knew it. though he told himself he was just being truthful. so she’d been with sebastian hey? well she hadn’t said that, corvin argued with himself. she’d spent most of her time with him, was what she’d said. so basically she’d meant that she’d spent most of her time at the bar with her other good male friend. right? he wanted so bad to believe that, even if he wasn’t entirely sure why. but he didn’t. not for a second. corvin knew aria too well. it was obviouse from the first moment she’d walked in what she’d been doing the night before. what wasn’t entirely obviouse to corvin though was why that thought pierced him like a friggen arrow. ”ya i’ve been out too much lately probably. but it’s fun.” he said shrugging.

as aria stepped towards him corvin felt his whole body tense. he had no clue what she was about to do. and was almost relieved when she pulled out his flask. not because she took his flask, he still wanted that, but because he’d thought for one heart stoppin gsecond that she was going to grab his arse. and he had no clue how he’d react to that. ”ahh but coffee’s too bitter without it!” he whined with a pout on his face. he was glad this seemed a bit more normal for them. so when she asked her next question corvin didn’t even think before replying ”seemed like the thing to do to not be hungover from all i drank last night.” the only other remedy he had was something along the lines of sex, greasy cheeseburger and fries and lots of pumpkin juice. but drinking again was just much simpler. expecially right now. he hadn’t hooked up with any girl since that night with aria. hadn’t even kissed a girl. it was one hell of a dry spell for him. usually he atleast put the mack on some hot babe atleast once a week. he had a pretty good track record. till now. ”whichever works for you. you’re the boss right now miss no-alcohol-nazi!” he replied shrugging.





tags: aria
word count: 1157
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: finally replied!!![/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1543 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE the moment the suggestion left her lips for Corvin to come back to her dorm room, Aria nearly regretted the words. it wasn't as though he hadn't been to her dorm room before, he had been several times in fact. it was just that, she wasn't sure them being alone together was the best idea right now. being around people was probably the best solution because around people they had no choice but to control themselves. something that Aria was having trouble with even at the moment. the conflicting emotions that were coursing through her, were sending her hormones into a fit. she wasn't used to having anything other then friendly feelings for guys. sure, she had several boy friends but never any that she dared to enter into the boyfriend category. she had a lot of males that she considered friends, getting on better with guys then girls most of the time but having a boyfriend was uncharted territory for her. a territory she wasn't even sure she wanted to cross. she kept her dilemma over them being alone to herself though, if Corvin could handle it then surely she could as well, right? merlin she certainly hoped so. though there was nothing saying that would even be the option he picked. perhaps he wanted to mingle amongst the crowd, or girls for that matter. Aria tried desperately to ignore the stabbing pain that thought had caused within in. she hadn't missed his wince, it would be hard not too and she automatically knew hiding her harshness had failed. Corvin was one person that she was never usually harsh towards. some of the girls he fooled around with maybe, but never him. this was completely unlike them but everything about the way they were acting was. "fair enough." looking down at the ground, Aria debated on offering to help him sort it out but didn't think that was wise. he obviously didn't want her near this song so as much as it bothered her she'd just have to let it be. especially since the song sounded in the state of exactly how she felt. so jumbled and messed up it was hard to understand. running her hand through her hair an audible soft sigh leaving her lips. she needed a shower. showers always helped her clear her mind. not to mention that she hadn't had one since the previous night and that made her feel even more dirty. Aria showered at least once a day, some times two depending on the events of the day. she would have been back in her dorm showering if she hadn't ran into Corvin. as that thought crossed her mind, several other ones that were extremely dirty and involved her best friend followed causing her to shiver. this was not the time to get such thoughts. "if you ever need helping sorting that mess out, you know where i am." though she was talking about the song, her statement sounded rather open. just what mess was she referring too could be brought into question. "most blokes don't like another guy helping their girl. its some possessive thing. i am sure you'd react the same way if it was your girl." Aria replied, looking up at him. that was one thing about men that she didn't understand. some of them would rather their girlfriend fall then another guy help them. merlin forbid another guy touches what is theirs. like a girl was something they owned. it was just another reason that caused Aria not to do relationships. she didn't desire to be someone's possession. "after all, a simple touch can provoke so much more in some girls and even guys for that matter. something that might have seemed simple to you might not have looked simple to her boyfriend." she stated, especially since she was sure Corvin had tossed the girl a few comments. it didn't necessarily mean he was interested in them, she knew this rather well. she had been around when he picked up his fair share of girls and had even helped him a few times in the past. that was before they had slept together and even thinking of him with another girl didn't cause her a certain amount of pain. "unfortunately for you, a broken bone can be mended with a spell whereas a black eye is left for everyone to see. making it looked like he got all the hits in." Aria pointed out, wishing more then anything she could help him get rid of it. "i don't really think i want to know how you know what merlin's old jock strap smells like." scrunching up her nose as a soft bout of laughter escaped her lips. "it only smells for a minute or two, while its working." shaking her head at him, for here he was beating other guys up yet whining over the smell of a potion. real manly of him. merlin men were so bloody confusing. "you should put some on, unless of course you want people believing the other guy got the best of the fight." shrugging her shoulders casually even though she knew very well she was now calling him out. no guy liked having their pride or image ruined especially if it meant others believing they lost a fight. raising her eyebrow at his statement to her comment, biting down upon the corner of her lower lip for a moment. "so you have to know they are interested before making a move?" she asked, the curiousness seeping through her words. "where's the risk taking in that? i always thought the thrill of the chase was in the unknown." at least that was how it was for Aria herself. she loved getting a guy interested in her, especially when they were so adamant in their answer. it was why she held such an interest in Winter. the bloke was one of a select few that she couldn't manage to convince to sleep with her. which was just a damn shame on their behave as far as she was concerned. "i haven't had much of the chance to get out. my Professor's seemed hell bent on keeping their students busy. aside from spending time with you, i haven't really been out." she mentally cursed herself, feeling as though she had just up and brought their night together out front. that hadn't been what she meant at all but it felt as though that was what she was talking about. "my assignments have been kicking my arse." coughing, she continued on hoping his mind didn't go where hers had. Aria's eyes danced across the pout that was on Corvin's lips and she found herself swallowing hard. "bitter coffee is exactly what you need." Aria's voice sounded a bit strain as she fought against her thoughts. thinking of other ways she could erase that pout from his lips. "drank a lot last night then? have a bad week?" Aria asked curiously, trying to figure out why he was drinking so much, managing for the time being to pull herself from her thoughts. "having more to drink doesn't help a hangover. it just allows it to subside for the time being. you'll be hurting tomorrow morning when you actually have classes." pointing out the obvious, just wanting to make him aware though. "i'm not trying to be bossy." Aria muttered, almost defensively. "did it ever occur to you that perhaps i care about you and your well being? maybe that is why i don't want you drinking this early during the day." her voice had almost sound snappy unintentionally. taking the flask from out of her purse she shoved it under her top, into the waistband of her shorts. "if you want to drink, go ahead but your going to have to get your flask back by yourself." trying to tell herself that she didn't just flirt with her friend Aria continued down the path towards the cafe. as she rounded the corner of the building towards the campus cafe she stopped in her tracks. it seemed the fates were working against her. the line up to the cafe was out the door and almost to where she stood. if she wanted to get coffee into Corvin then the closest option was her dorm. biting down upon her lip she turned and looked at him. "seems my dorm is the closest." merlin she was screwed. adjusting her purse upon her shoulder she started down the path towards her dorm. alcohol didn't seem like such a bad idea right about now. except alcohol clouded a person's judgement and that was cloudy enough for Aria as it was, she didn't need any further help.

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omg! i love them! lol!

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table by CALIFORNIA DREAMING of CAUTION 2.0, lyrics by maroon 5

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

A

[/size]t first corvin didn’t think anything of aria’s suggestion of heading back to her dorm room for capucino. it wasn’t anything out of the ordinary for them. he’d probably been in her dorm room more than probably any other guy. well he didn’t really know that for sure, he just figured. somewhere inside his damn confused brain he hoped he had been. yes it wasn’t unusual and at first he hadn’t thought anything about it. then all of a sudden the thought of being alone with her, in her room, so very near a bed just seemed like it would be way to much right now. he wasn’t sure if it’d just be awkward, or if he wouldn’t be able to control himself. bloody hell he was barely able to control himself right now. it was taking every bit of control he possesed not to start teearing aria’s clothes off. and not just because some other guy had touched them. and then in comes all the other feelings, all the guilt and all the anger at himself for even letting such thoughts enter his mind. it was getting harder by the minute to push those thoughts back inside. the last thing he could handle right now was being alone with her.

breathing a sigh of relief as she lead the way in the direction of the cafe corvin fell into step beside her easily. smilling, a bit apologetically, at her offer corvin shrugged ”you’ll be the first one to know, i promise you that.” it was true. once he did get it figured out, or even if he didn’t, she would be the first one to hear it. maybe, if the thoughts in their box finally had a full scale revolution and took over he’d invite her out to an open mic night and sing it then. a dreamy look came over corvin’s face as he thought of it. it wouldn’t have been the first time he’d used his singing to get a girl. but it would be the first time he’d actually plan it to tell the girl something. if that happened. which, right now, he was using every bit of control to make sure that revolution never occured. but merlin’s beard it was getting hard. she’s your friend, your friend. nothing more. he had to keep reminding himself. nothing more was allowed to happen. he shouldn’t even be having these thoughts. they shouldn’t even be in this damn situation. he almost felt that if he could just remember exactly what the catalyst had been that lead to their ending up in bed together had been he’d be able to figure out all these stupid feelings going through his brain. almost like how they sometimes say that if you learn something while drunk you’ll remember it when you’re drunk again.

cocking an eyebrow at her next comment corvin gave it some thought. sure he could be a bit possesive and jealous when he was with a girl, mostly just his ex. but he usually let a girl do her own thing. with his ex he had a bloody good reason to be a bit possessive and wary of other guys around her. but with a few other girls he’d been with he was pretty trusting. hell with one they’d found it the funniest thing to let other people hit on each other htan swoop in at the last moment. ”well in my opinion, if there’s a reason to be wary about oyur girl around other guys then sure. but if you trust her and you still freak out than you’re just an insecure deuche bag.” he replied. he hated how guys tended to think of their girlfriends as property. it was too much like the pureblood crap his grandparent’s and their friends spouted off. ”i generally let the girl do her own thing. if i don’t trust her than it obviously doesn’t mean much anyways and i won’t care.” he finished shrugging. ”ya i can see that. didn’t mean a thing to me. she was pretty, she fell, i helped. you know me and the damsel in distress bit.”

touching his eye lightly corvin thought about it. a black eye wasn’t so bad. there was quite the argument for it making him look tough. seeing as he was a singer people, mostly guys, tended to think he was a bit of a fag. so a black eye wasn’t so bad in his mind. ”nah he had quite a few bruises too. and a split lip, and a cut eyebrow. and maybe some internal bleeding.” he replied, trying to make it sound not so bad. laughing at her comment for the merlins jock strap joke he wondered just how far he should take it. ”well you see there was this one time the ol’ boy called me up because his celestial football team needed a water boy...” he started, waiting to see her reaction. coughing to cover his ignoring her next comment corvin pushed passed a few slow walking people in front of them. slow walking people annoyed the hell out of him.

maybe corvin shouldn’t have said he had to know they were interested. he was fishing big time with that one. he didn’t always need to know that. infact sometimes he’d go after a girl he knew hated his guts just for the fun of it. and he hardly ever failed. but if he was actually looking for a real relationship, well then ya he liked to know they were atleast a bit interested in him. ”both have their merits that is true. but i like to know they at least find me attractive so then there’s isn’t a bunch of awkwardness when i go to throw them on the bed.” he commented. unknown was fine, but he liked to atleast have a few gaurantees. maybe that was another reason that it had been so great with aria. yes there was the big unknown of never having even ventured down that path before, but there was still the fact that they knew each other so well. it was a different level of connection then what he’d ever had with another girl. it was something so surreal even while it was happening he hadn’t fully been able to deal with it. which had been much of the reason thoughts of it had haunted for this whole week. a small shiver ran through him as he forced back more memories of that night. it wasn’t safe to let those out in public, especially with aria right beside him.

corvin let aria continue on for a while. it was true that it probably wasn’t the greatest idea for him to be drinking so much. but as to the question about why he was drinking so much was a bit hard to answer. because if he wanted to be blunt about it, she was the reason. well what they’d done together was. but he could blame it on her if he wanted to. blaming it on her sexines and beauty seemed like the best way to go right now. and then he wanted to punch himself for thinking of her as sexy. ya he’d always known she was beautiful, it was a bit hard not to notice. but sexy was something you weren’t supposed to think of about your best friend. it was like in the friendship code somewhere. ”it seemed like something to do. and drinking again has usually worked alright for me.” he argued back trying not to let himself smile or glow at the thought that she did care for him. it wasn’t hard seeing as the very next thought was that she only cared for him as a friend. he was obviously the only one having these stupid thoughts. inwardly corvin groaned at the size of the line. ”you can keep it for now. till we get to your dorm at least.” he replied. cursing himself as his mind took his comment into the gutter corvin hoped he was the only one. oh please merlin let her mind not have gone into the gutter too.



tags: aria
word count: 1355
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: yay!!!![/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1330 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE as she walked the path to her dorm, in stride with Corvin, she worked hard at convincing herself she'd be able to do this. it wasn't the first time he had been in her dorm, hell he had been in there probably more then any other guy. except for maybe Quinton or Ben, but that was a totally different situation. this had been the first time Corvin had been in her dorm since the incident and Aria didn't think being close to any kind of surface, especially a bed, was a good idea. part of her felt like taking a turn and heading down to the town, but with her luck it would be just as busy. what in merlin's name was it with students and their coffee intake on the weekends? it was insane. though it wasn't like she didn't know this, it was exactly why she had purchased the damn expresso machine to begin with. Aria tried convincing herself that all she had to do was pretend nothing had happened between them, that this was just two friends going back to enjoy a cup of coffee. unfortunately if it was that easy for her to pretend like it didn't happen, then she wouldn't be feeling the way she was at the moment. her thoughts subsided at his promised words and she turned her head to look at him, a small smile upon her lips. "i'd appreciate that." though she didn't know how many songs she had helped Corvin with, she figured it would be nice to hear one that was all his. pushing the door open that headed into the Slytherin Building, Aria waited for Corvin then continued on down the corridor. listening to his reply to her statement about possessive guys, she smiled a bit. "not many guys trust their girls, especially around good looking guys like you." she pointed out. it wasn't the first time she had complimented him on his looks but her compliment felt different now. she had always been aware of how attractive he was, she'd have to be blind not too. everything about him though just seemed heightened in her mind since their night together."it would be like trust me or your ex in the arms of another guy because we tripped. there is just something that clicks in the mind that says, hey get your hands off my girl. after all, no body but you should be touching her, correct?" why had she placed herself in the combination with his ex? merlin. "were you ever wary about your ex?" she knew he had reason to be, but she was simply curious how he might have reacted had the girl been his. "can't say i really know how the ins and outs of relationships work. i imagine some girls do stupid things like that just to get a rise out of their boyfriends. though i do know that i'd never like being someone's possession. for the chances are, if you've actually got me as a girlfriend then there should be no reason for me to want another guys hands on me." Aria really didn't know if she was girlfriend material. she was sure though that if she ever ventured down that path it would have to be with someone that trusted her completely. her reputation would get the best of them if not, because they'd always be calling her actions into question. she wouldn't put up with that. "yes, you do have this thing about helping girls who can't help themselves." she agreed, nodding her head softly. not exactly sure where that left her on his radar. she wasn't exactly a damsel in distress, in fact she was far from. she was her own women and proud of it. mentally shaking these thoughts from her mind, since it shouldn't matter to her. "well, since you put it that way. then you got off easy." she laughed, as he listened to all the other injuries of the other guy. she never should have underestimated Corvin, she knew how well he could handle himself. pausing in the corridor, she stared at her best friend at his explanation. "i do believe i said i don't want to know. if you continue it really will ruin my image of you." she laughed, shaking her head. the image that she had of him though she shouldn't have, but even still she didn't want to tarnish it. "and trust me, i doubt you'd want to do that." a smirk tugged at the corner of her lips, the comment escaping before she could really stop it. it wasn't as though she could take it back even if she wanted too. perhaps he wouldn't have even heard her, though she doubted that very much. "so that's how you get girls? by throwing them on a bed?" Aria asked, her mind racing. had he thrown her on a bed? she had thought they had both fallen at the same time. then again she wasn't even sure if a bed was involved. the smaller details like this seemed to be lost within her minds confusion. his theory though seemed that it would land more one night stands then girlfriends but she wasn't about to comment. since her mind stopped racing about their one time thing, it was now occupying itself with thoughts of him throwing other girls on a bed and she wasn't liking it one bit. "i do hope dinner or something of the sort is involved as well." she muttered, as she approached the door to her dorm wondering why she was torturing herself like this. "though i suppose the trade in information is fair. you find out she thinks your attractive and she finds out just how good in bed you are. win, win, right?" unlocking her bedroom door then walking in, tossing her purse onto the chair by her bed. the room seemed to be otherwise empty, her hope for one her room mates being around being diminished. it looked like it was just going to be her and Corvin. "so um, do you want a latte? or an expresso? or a cappuccino?" Aria asked him as she approached her machine, this being the first time she had ever used it. "i just got this so i don't really know how to use it yet. can't be that complicated right?" staring down at the buttons she frowned then shrugged, taking out her wand and flicking it at the machine. when all else fails, use magic. "well, if you want to continue drinking then you are going to have to find your flask. i'm not giving it back to you that easy." leaning against her desk she looked over at her best friend. "i hope you don't mind, but i need to go change. these clothes are just," she paused making a face. "they just need to go." Aria finished pushing off her desk and walking over to her wardrobe. "make yourself at home, i'll just be a few seconds." digging out a change of clothes. she needed a shower, but that could wait she didn't want to push her luck right now. turning to head to the bathroom, she paused and looked back at Corvin. "you don't mind do you?" figuring it was rude not to ask, or at least make sure. normally she wouldn't worry about such things and she used to change right there in front of him but she doubted that was a good idea.

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

C

[/size]orvin could tell already that this was probably one of the worst ideas the two of them had ever had. and they’d had some pretty epic ideas over the years. like the time they thought it’d be such a good idea to turn the grand staircase into a giant slip and slide. it had taken allot of pumpkin juice and jello but it had worked. and it’d been damn fun too. unfortunately the professors hadn’t seen it that way. especially when one of them had gone sliding down ‘accidentally’. corvin still didn’t know how his foot had ended up right behind her’s just as she was walking backwards trying to get them to head home. he had no clue why she’d gotten it into her head that he was responsible. or that he had to be punished for it. well he hadn’t minded too much. he’d made sure that he took all the responsibility, but she’d still somehow figured out he hadn’t acted alone, and had stuck aria into detention with him. so they’d brought a jug of pumpkin juice and a bowl of jello for her to their detention. somehow, no matter how much trouble they could have gotten into, they always managed to remind the professors that they liked them. on second thought, maybe that hadn’t been a bad idea. could have been if someone had gotten hurt, but they hadn’t so it’d been fun. they’d had lots of fun times together.

smiling sideways at aria as they walked corvin felt a bit of a guilty stab at her comment. she’d never had to appreciate him showing her one of his songs. it had never even been a question that he would. hell half the time she’d just grab his book and read through it if she saw it lying around. it was normal. but normal was something that you definitely couldn’t use to describe today. or this last week. like the fact that corvin could barely keep a smile from his face at her compliment. yea she’d said pretty much the same thing lots of times before. but hearing it now felt different. it felt good, it felt all warm and fuzzy. and he hated how cliche that sounded. merlin there was so much of this he hated. like how he couldn’t figure out just why it was she included herself when she talked about him wanting guys to get his hands off his girl. though it was true he definitely wouldn’t be happy if he saw a guy with his hands on aria. and part of him really felt he wanted to cal her ‘his girl’. it wouldn’t be so bad would it? clearing his throat, and trying to clear his head of those thoughts, corvin thought about her question. ”well it depends on how they’re touching her. just a friendly hug it’s not big. as long as i knew they were just friends.” he realized he wasn’t making much of a case for himself as a not jealouse guy. truth was he wasn’t usually jealous. but aria had hit the nail right on the head, when it came to her and jules... well he could get a little touchy about guys touching them.

”i had damn good reason to be with jules though.” he reminded her. it wasn’t like it was a secret. nodding at what she said corvin had to admit that’s sort of what he’d always thought. he never got why girls were jealous of him being around other girls when he was dating them. ”i agree. you have no idea how many girls i’ve been dating that try to tell me i can’t spend time with other girls, especially you.” he said laughing. it had always been funny to him. because, as he’d told the girls, he’d never thought of aria that way. at least until now. ”but you haven’t even heard about how he signed a ball and gave it to me!” he whined before cracking up in laughter.

shrugging corvin stalled for time. he couldn’t recall exactly how it had happened before. he wasn’t sure how he should answer her. ”general terms, love. general terms.” he played it safe. without knowing if he’d actually thrown her on the bed he didn’t want to admit to anything. fighting back mental images of throwing aria onto her bed as they stepped into her room corvin set his guitar down by the door. ”i guess you could say win win. though usually i’m not just getting the fact she thinks i’m attractive out of the deal.” as he stuffed his hands in his pockets corvin looked anywhere but at the bed. looking at the bed would probably just be a very bad idea right now. ”uhh, they all sound girly so i guess just whatever you’re having.” he replied looking over at her. and instantly realizing looking at the bed was probably the safer option. he knew very well where his flask was. and while he needed a drink, and was intrigued about her option of trying to find it, he knew that that would tantamount to setting an a-bomb off in his head.

”good idea. um, i’ll just chill here and make sure you’r machine doesn’t blow up.” he replied. he was going to be pretty relieved when she wasn’t in last nights clothes. and he didn’t have to think about some other guy taking them off of her. suppressing a shudder at the thought he turned just in time to bump her as she walked passed him to the bathroom. at that little bit of skin touching skin, the light sweep of her shirt against his arm, the waft of her perfume, corvin’s mind went blank. it was a second till it came back at which point his body took over anyways. without so much as a thought he grabbed his best friend and kissed her. and it wasn’t any polite, light, lingering kiss. it was full on, complete passion. he felt like he’d been wandering the desert and had just had a drink of water. it was like every sense in his body was heightened and tingling. he pressed her against the wall, his hands gripping her upper arms, as he deepened the kiss even more. a very tiny, insignificant part of his brain was screaming the word ‘idiot’ over and over. but it was getting largely drowned out by the sound of rushing wind moving through his head. everything was being blown away, any sense of guilt or any worries were just thrown aside. nothing else mattered but the lips touching his, and the girl pressed between his body and the wall. and then suddenly, fiercely, his conciouse came back to him. he realized what he was doing. and he quickly let her go and stepped back. "uh, um i'm so- um sorry. i didn't mean- um sorry. shit. i shouldn't have-" he quickly stammered out, his tongue still feeling like it was tied in knots.






tags: aria
word count: 1113
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: hehehehehehe YAY![/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1430 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE it was extraordinarily odd how Aria's thoughts were at battle with themselves. it was as though one part of her mind was telling her that being alone with Corvin was completely normally and that she should be used to it. whilst the other part of her mind was disagreeing, that being alone with him was anything but normal given the way her hormones flared when he simply got close to her. it was condridicting at its best because she really didn't know which side of her mind she wanted to listen too. if she could just combine the sides of her mind to think as one rather then argue with one another then perhaps she'd get somewhere. like the fact that being alone with him was completely normal before they had slept together and now there was this sexual charged nature between them that had her on a spin. "though then perhaps the girl had fallen into one to many guys arms. maybe the boyfriend was just sick of it and went after you because he thought you were one of many." it was true, neither of them knew the whole situation. Aria herself knew first hand how tricky girls could be because not only was she a girl, which was obvious, but she had seen some of the lamest excuses used before. she had tried on a few excuses way back in the day but it never really worked out for her the way she wanted. besides, she saw no needed for trickery. she was blunt enough to tell a guy what she wanted and had no shame in doing so. it usually got her what she wanted faster and she didn't have to play any games or jump through hoops to get it. "what if she saw him as just a friend but he saw her as more?" she questioned raising her eyebrow at him. "guys get the wrong idea just as often as girls do. a couple of smiles that may have not even been directed at him and they think they are all hot and stuff." rolling her eyes at this because she had more then one guy who she thought of nothing more then a friend give her quite not friendly hugs. "what it really all depends on is the situation and then ultimately the people involved." everything always looked different from the outside looking in. families looked perfect when they were far from that, couples looked happy when they were arguing every chance they got and sometimes friends looked friendlier then they actually were. "you did, which is why i'll never understand why you keep going back to her." Aria stated, as this was something that always puzzled her. of course it puzzled her more now, since she couldn't understand why a great guy like him put himself through the crap that Juliette Rowle had done to him and then kept going back for more. he deserved better. though she refused to let her mind finish that sentence with anything about her, he simply just deserved to be treated better. laughing softly at his comment about past girlfriends, this really didn't surprise her. "i tend to bring on that reaction a lot." so much so that she was used to it. "i mean, don't you know that i don't have a single male friend that i'm not sleeping with." her eyes met his as the words left her lips and she felt her stomach drop. she really was running out of guys who were her friend that she didn't sleep with. Aria figured that the truth of the matter was, girls didn't want their boyfriends around her because they knew if she wanted them she'd have them. however, she wasn't about to go all egotistical on Corvin so she simply kept that thought to herself. scrunching up her nose, Aria shook her head at him hair moving from shoulder to shoulder laughter falling from her lips. "oh please spare me the details. i rather like the mental image i have of you and don't want to tarnish it." a smiled adorned her lips as she looked back to her best friend. it was nice to know that even in awkward times like these he could still make her laugh. "hm, i suppose that's true, you are getting more out of the deal as well. satisfaction, gratitude and another girl." her tongue traced out over her suddenly dry lips. not exactly liking that for once she felt like just another girl. shaking that thought from her mind, focusing on the caramel colored liquid that was coming from the machine. "i believe its cappuccino." at least that was what it looked like, but she wouldn't be entirely sure until she tasted it. after getting his okay for her to go and change Aria had been turning on her heel when she felt the slight skim of his body against her own. it wasn't much but it was enough to make all of her senses come alive and be entirely aware of how close she was to him. her gaze instinctively went up to his and she seemed almost frozen in place. though that didn't keep the shock from taking over her body the moment she felt his lips upon hers. nothing could have prepared her for that. it had taken her a moment to shake from the shock and respond. clothes in her hands forgotten she grabbed a hold of his shirt and kissed him back, the clothes tumbling down to their feet. normally she would have wrapped her arms around his neck but he had a hold of her arms so she contented herself with holding the only thing she could. Aria's mind just barely registered the feeling of the wall behind her, to concerned with the body that was pressed into her. it felt though that as soon as it begun happening, it was over. breathless, with her heart beating rapidly in her chest Aria stared over at Corvin. her hand absently coming up to her still tingling lips and yet all she could do was stare. his words though pulled her from her awed state and she shook her head. "of course you shouldn't." her voice laced with sarcasm as she rolled her eyes at him. she had been kissing him back had she not? now he was apologizing for it? he was going to make her head explode. bending down to retrieve the clothes she had dropped she turned to head for the bathroom but then stopped once again. "this is bloody ridiculous." Aria stated nearly whipping back around to face him. "we slept together. we both know we did. it wasn't like it was some shared dream we had or something. it happened. yet we both seem to be pretending it didn't and i don't even know why! i don't regret it and its not like i want to pretend it didn't happen. in fact, i actually quite enjoyed it." a slight huff left her lips as she ran her free hand through her hair. "and now your standing here apologizing for kissing me! you've seen me naked Corvin, in a rather intimate circumstance. would you like to apologize for that too? if you regret it happening or want to pretend it didn't, that's fine but i honestly can't continue on like this. its driving me bloody bonkers." her eyes met his, mixed emotions crossing through her own. shaking her head once again she sighed a heavy sigh, deciding to give him time to process everything she just said. it was probably a bit much. "the cappuccino will be done soon." turning then she entered the bathroom and closed the door behind her. Aria hadn't even realized her entire body was shaking until that very moment. changing from what she was wearing into a pair of comfy pants, tying the drawstring around the waist, with a matching white tee shirt. emerging from the bathroom, freshly changed a few moments later. dropping the dirty clothes into the hamper she leaned against the door frame, looking down at the ground actually having nothing further to say.

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today
be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

A

[/size]ria did have a point. that girl had seemed like she hadn’t entirely fallen by accident now he came to think of it. ”one of many? one of many!” he replied trying to sound as outraged as possible “”well ok ya i guess you may have a point.” he conceded grinning. it was true, probably. but he liked playing around with aria sometimes. ok no that sounded way to wrong in his head given the current situation. might not be entirely untrue but still not right. corvin really wished he’d stop reading into all his thoughts and everything aria said. because it was killing him. like her next statement. could it be she was trying to tell him that she could tell what he was thinking and was trying to tell him that she only thought of him as a friend? or was she just using it as an example? maybe she was talking about how another guy was feeling that way about her and she wasn’t digging it? merlin he didn’t know. he wished he did, or maybe. it depended on what the answer was.

clearing his throat at he next comment corvin decided that might be just a bit to loaded of a comment to even touch. he figured he was probably the last of her male friends to sleep with her. he knew well enough that she was sleeping with quinn and benedikt. and probably a few others. before it had never bothered him. he knew she wouldn’t get hurt because it was just sex to her. but now he didn’t like it. the thought made him want to find the two of them and tell them to back the hell off. and make himself look like a total nut job in the process. it was just sex. that’s all it had been to her, so why not him? it had only ever been just sex to him with every other girl except jules. why did it have to change? it was so easy before. ”cappucino’s good for me! whatever it is.” he replied taking the cup from her. sniffing at it he took a little sip. ”hmm not bad. not bad at all.”

his mind may have been completely shut off but that didn’t stop him from registering the fact that aria had kissed him back. her body had responded quickly, but then she’d met him pasion for pasion. and then it was over. and he’d stammered out some sort of appology. he wasn’t sure why he’d felt he had to appologize. but it was like he’d taken some sort of drug to make his mind melt. then he felt even more confused. she agreed with him? that just wasn’t something that he’d expected. he felt like he should say something. and then it seemed that aria just said everything he’d wanted to say for him. there wasn’t anything corvin could do. his brain was still fuzzy from the kiss. and she was gone into the bathroom too quick. then he thought over all she’d said. and he started to get pissed. it sounded like she thought he was either being an idiot, or it was all his fault. it’s not like he was the only one who had been pretending it hadn’t happened, ignoring the obviouse tension between them. while she was in the bathroom he had enough time to get himself pretty worked up. the unfairness of it all was pissing him off more than anything else. why the bloody hell did this have to happen to them? yes he really didn’t want to trade that night, he’d enjoyed it too. but if he had the choice to either give it up nd go back to what they were before or to keep it and be like this then he didn’t have much of a hard choice.

when she came back out he had his arms crossed over his chest and a definate scowl etched across his face. he was ready to give back as good as he’d gotten. but the difference between how she’d left the room; in a complete anger huff in last nights bar clothes, to looking so innocent and almost vulnerable now made his own anger melt away. looking at her now all he felt was the need to protect her. he couldn’t explain it but he just wanted to hold her and keep out anything that might cause her any sort of hurt. fuck he’d never had that sort of powerful change in feelings. he’d never felt this ridiculously protective before. not even with his sisters. sighing corvin rubbed his hands over his face. he had a choice here. either he could appologize and make an agreement to admit it happened but move past it and go back to how they’d been. or he could apologize, because he knew he’d never get away with not apologizing no matter what his choice, and then make her forget everything else but them.

moving over to her corvin picked her chin up with his finger. smiling down at her he sighed again. ”i’m sorry. i apologized because part of me still feels like i need to protect you from guys like me. but i know i can’t, and i don’t need to.” he told her quietly. looking into her eyes for a second corvin kissed her again, lightly this time. just a wuick peck on the lips. ‘i’m sorry. but i’m not sorry for anything else.” he finished before snaking his arms around her waist and pulling her into him. kissing her again, this time he held onto her for all he was worth. if he was going to do this, if he was going to risk throwing away their entire friendship then he’d better do it right.



tags: aria
word count: 963
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: ahh hsorry for such a short one, tired.[/blockquote][/justify]

[aria a. flint]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; background-color: #343434; padding:20px; border-top: 10px #af9390 solid; border-bottom: 10px #af9390 solid;] something in your eyes ( WORDS ) 1072 ( TAGGED ) CORVIN LESTRANGE ( STATUS ) COMPLETE she honestly didn't know why she reacted the way she had. it wasn't like her one bit, normally she was the one to keep a cool and calm head about things. besides, it wasn't as though he was the only one pretending like nothing had happened between them. she was just as guilty of doing so. none of this had occurred to her though until she was safely behind the bathroom door. Aria could only imagine what Corvin's reaction was, hell she'd be surprised if he was still there when she emerged from the bathroom. she wouldn't exactly blame him if he wasn't. she had gone off like some crazy bonkers girlfriend, something she was far from. the only thing she could justify her response with was the fact that she didn't like that he had apologized. in all the years she had known Corvin, sorry wasn't something she heard from him often. if anything he knew she'd be the one person who would listen to him rant and rave until they were both blue in the face. she took none of it personally. except for this particular apology because it was directed at and about her. merlin she had never really been so infuriated in all of her life. it was one of many new feelings she had towards Corvin in the time that she had met up with him that day. a large part of her wanted to scream well another larger part of her really just wanted to cry. something that Aria didn't do to often, not unless she was suffering a great deal. sure she could bring on the fake tears at the snap of a finger but for her to actually want to cry, well that was saying something. if there was one thing she was learning it was that she knew not sleeping with Benedikt was a good idea. if this was how her friendship with Corvin was going to wind up, she definitely didn't want this happening twice. she adored him far too much. so Aria figured she would simply continue to fantasize about him because it was the only safe option. his friendship was the only safe friendship she had left. the only male friend she had that she hadn't seen with his clothes off. merlin, this was just getting sad. most girls would be boosting or even excited that they had accomplished such a task. given that all of her best male friends were extremely gorgeous and very popular with the ladies. as she emerged from the bathroom, she hadn't missed the scowl that was etched on Corvin's features or the way his arms were crossed amongst his chest. doing her best not to cringe as she waited for him to lay into her just as she had done to him. it didn't come though. she had no idea what changed his mind, but reckoned it was something good. Aria had heard the shuffling of his feet against the floor as he made his way over to her. allowing him to raise her face, her eyes found his and she found herself biting down on the lower corner of her lip. she had never been this bundle of emotions before so she really didn't know what to expect next. reaching up she tucked a few stray pieces of hair behind her ear as she listened to his explanation. it all made relatively good sense which made her feel even worse for loosing it on him. "guys like you?" this always puzzled Aria whenever he would say this. it wasn't as though he was a bad guy and she had been with much worse. "Corvin, you know i've been with and around guys that are far worse then you. just because you enjoy the occasional hook up doesn't make you a bad guy. you actually have a heart, a good one at that. you tend to think with your mind instead of allowing your other head to do the thinking for you. most of the guys i've crossed paths with are the opposite. guys like you have been the ones that have terrified me from the get go and generally sent me going the opposite direction." a small smile tugged at the corners of her lips, simply because it was the truth. any guy that dared to show Aria any kind of emotion other then lust she went the other way from. "besides, i've told you a hundred times, i don't need protecting i'm a big-" the word girl died on her lips as he kissed her and she too happily kissed him back. it didn't exactly last long but it was more then enough to send every nerve in her body on edge. "and just why don't you have to protect me anymore?" the words left Aria's lips in a soft whisper, as her eyes gazed up into his. without heels on, several guys had an advantage in height over her but in this circumstance she didn't mind. it was a good thing that she didn't have anything to say in regards to his apology for his lips were back upon hers. kissing him felt different then kissing anyone else, even Benedikt. Aria's arms wove around Corvin's neck as she kissed him back, giving everything that she got. enjoying the way that he held her because it pushed aside all the fears that were slowly arising in her. breaking her lips slowly from his Aria took in a sharp intake of breath. her eyes remained closed as her fingers traced along the back of his neck. "so we aren't pretending this didn't happen anymore?" merlin's beard she hoped not, it had been hurting her head. especially now since all she could think about was kissing him until she truly couldn't breath. "and your right, that cappuccino does taste pretty good." Aria stated with a bit of a smirk on her lips as her eyes finally opened. she hadn't touched a single drop of her own drink but she was able to taste it off his lips, which was better if you were asking her.

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t'awe! <3

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[corvin a. lestrange]

hurt myself again today

be my friend, hold me, wrap me up

H

[/size]ow was it that corvin could have thought this was such a bad idea? well ok he still wasn’t entirely convinced that it wasn’t a bad idea. he was still trying to spot where it was going to blow up in his face. just like pretty much everything else tended to for him. he’d just start to relax and bam! something would happen to kick him back to the ground. he wasn’t sure where it was going to come with this though. it could be his ex would come back in the picture, and as much as it hurt to admit it corvin wasn’t sure how that would go. he hoped he would be better this time. but there was a reason he refered to jules as his heroin. she was an adiction. one that was severely bad for his health, physically and mantally. but then there was the girl on the other end of one of the best kisses of his life. aria wouldn’t hurt him. he had to believe that. he knew he would do everything in his power not to hurt her. he’d been doing that for years, doing everything he could to keep her from getting hurt, or fixing whatever it was quick as he could. but he knew he couldn’t protect her forever, maybe this was the point where he had to stop. well not stop protecting her, he’d never stop that, but stop when it came to him.

guys like him. well there was a loaded statement. as much as she might think that he was just a great guy, he wasn’t. sure yes there was definately worse people out there. but he was the type of guy he generally wanted to keep away from his female friends, cousins and sisters. guys like him tended to hurt girls. ”you’re always going to need protecting so far as i’m concerned. you’ll never change that.” he replied after the first kiss. ”i do still have to protect you, and i will. i’ve just found an easier, and thoroughly more enjoyable way to do it.” he answered her next question with a characteristic smirk on his lips. a smirk that was quickly replaced by her lips. and merlin were they lips. he’d actually always thought aria had a very kissable set of lips, it just had always been a mere observation versus wanting to take them for a test drive. but now that he’d started he had to admit they were a bit like finding an oasis after days of crawling through the desert.

it was an odd way to explain it, but that’s how it felt just now. it felt like the first snow of the winter, the first rain after a drought. it was all shiny, new and amazing. and it was intense. he’d never had a girl kiss him with such force and power behind it. a girl that kissed back as good as she got and more so. he was almost out of breath just from the brief moments. it felt like he was running a marathon, his heart was beating a million miles a minute and he felt light headed. breathing in as she pulled away corvin attempted to repress a shudder that ran through his body as her fingers traced up his neck. an attempt that failed horribly. running his hands down the length of her body to rest on her hips corvin wet his lips as he tried to focus his mind on her next question. smirking he cocked an eyebrow at her, as if in thought. then he lifted her off the floor and pushed her back against the wall, wrapping her legs around his waist as he did so. kissing her neck gently he chuckled. ”hell ya we are! i just want to pretend one more time.” he told her in his absolute most sarcastic tone he could muster. kissing her neck again he slowly moved up and kissed her cheek, then her lips ”i don’t know about you, but it was making my head hurt trying to figure it out, so let’s just go with our guts or hearts or whatever, and give our brains a break, ok?”.

merlin he hoped she agreed to that. because it seemed like the much simpler road to take right about now. it would make things so much easier if he could just be one of those guys who only followed one head and not the one with a brain that aria had mentioned. sometime he wished he could be one of those guys. but he knew he wasn’t made that way. maybe it was the weasley in him, who knew? they were certainly, by history, the nicer and more moral of his two sides. the lestranges could never really be labeled as having a heart, up untill his dad. corvin’s dad was the black sheep of the family, or the only white sheep in an all black sheep family depending on how you looked at it. it wasn’t possible for corvin to be like that. sure he tended to hurt girls, but every time he did he tried not to. short of staying with the girl he tried to let her down as gently as absolutely possible. it’s just who he was. chuckling at aria’s next comment corvin licked his lips slowly and put on a thoughtful look. ”by golly you’re right, i am right!” he replied laughing.

tags: aria
word count: 909
lyrics: breathe me - sia
notes: sorry for the smallness, will get better i promise! just wanted to make sure you got some replies! finally![/blockquote][/justify]